CAN I TAKE AWAY THE PAIN?

Can I take away the pain?

We are being challenged at this time, our defaults, our patterns have been taken away. Our natural tendencies & numbing mechanisms might still be available, they might have been taken away or they might be getting old….there might be a little voice that is sick of the same shit.

The same default, the same pattern.

You might be well on your path, you might be stuck in a pattern, you might be sitting with pain, you might be asleep.
One option is not better or worse than the other, it’s just where you are at.

And we are being called to sit with where we are at.
To sit in the discomfort, the shit.
To become aware of our defaults, our natural tendencies.
and my natural tendencies & defaults were taken away.

A little bored, need a spice up:
I travel.
I serve.
I create.

I couldn’t do that last week, I couldn’t coach, teach, sure as shit couldn’t travel, I couldn’t create.

I was exhausted, in recovery and shit got ‘ugly’.

Some nasty tendencies reared their head, resistance took the forefront and I created a war within my skin. It was a rollercoaster of emotions, of anger, rage, scattered energy, wanting to be anywhere other then exactly where I was.

It got uncomfortable, I got really uncomfortable, I pushed, I resisted, I fought a battle that couldn’t be won until finally I surrendered, I crumbled into the mystery.

I succumbed to the reality that there was no other choice but to find solace in exactly where I am.

To find stillness & solitude right here, to find the joy in the simplicity of the moment.
To just be. To remove the armour. The shackles and float.

Will resistance rise again? As long as I’m human. Yes.

The greatest teacher we have been given right now is to come back to the solace again and again. To navigate & go into the waters. Into the story and find the stillness beneath it all.
To surrender into the mundane, to be with exactly what is.

And so….Can I take away the pain?

No.

But you can.

And just like my healers, mentors and guides take me in…..there are teachers lingering on the sidelines to guide you in.
When the student is ready the teacher appears.
Watch for the ones calling you.
#awaken